Medicare goofed and never sent me my new 'red white and blue card' as they call it which meant spending lots of phone time in order to have them re-send it.
Finally it came today in the mail. Return address read "Health and Human Services."
Now, I'm officially old.
Do not argue with me.
Age 59 was hard for me cuz that's the age my dad died. A lot went on in my mind. To honor him, I thought it wasn't right to outlive him, and yet my thirst for life was very strong.
See, these are emotions we're talking about, not rational thoughts. Emotions are really goofy. They come unbidden.
But it's important that thoughts are goofy and unpredictable. That's how great ideas come about. Let the mind roam free.
For example, I just spent time on YouTube listening to some great blues artists. You know, John Lee Hooker, Son House, Lighnin Hopkins, Muddy Walker, Jimmy Reed, Robert Johnson. These people are my idols!
So I'm sitting here on my bed rockin with them and I think to myself: What's the point of listening? What...is...the...point?
Capture a few of these stray thoughts that enter your head.
Currently I'm under the influence of Carl Sagan and his Cosmos program, orig. broadcast on PBS and now available online. This 1980 program of 13 episodes was the top-rated PBS Show until Ken Burns' Civil War in 1990.
It is not only prescient in its ability to foretell the harm we've done to our planet in the past 30 years, but also inspires the viewer with the awe and wonder of the cosmos. You will learn while you're being entertained by Sagan, who Isaac Asimov called 'only one of two other people who were smarter than me.'
Sagan died at age 62 of a form of leukemia. He was married three times and had lots of smart children. Born in 1934, he would be 76 today.
INTO THE COLD
It happened so fast
This grown woman thing
You came to town and threw me a party
With birthday cake and red roses you put by the radio
I prevailed upon you to stay an extra day
You are the one more than anyone
I long for
You became the novelist I always wanted to be
Married a man who took you from our quiet street
Where green lawns and raked leaves are the measure
Of success
To a world rich with meaning like you had never known
That day in Battery Park we sat listening to him play
While the dancers rumbled about on stage
There’s Mark and Julie you pointed out beneath
The darkening sky
The grass was our quilt and the
Hudson rippled in the distance
This was the tip of Manhattan
Where Whitman had roamed bearded and unfettered
And now at party’s end I must see you off
The night is cold and dark
Wind howling round our little yellow house
That refuses to bend or yield to the mighty assaults
But stands: bright lights blaring as I walk you to the
Back porch
You wear a little tapered jacket and hat I want to call
A beanie from your Brownie days when you sold cookies
Bravely in the apartment when you were only six
I stood in the stairwell and listened
Small unrecognized prodigy that you were
We step onto the back porch
Me in my neck brace and limp
Nothing but a wounded fluttering bird
You ready to take on the world
As the wind soars around the back porch and
The door flaps on itself
Your smile as great as the wind and the cold night
You are gone down
The path where the kids come in from school
and the deer travel too
I shut the door loudly and
You are gone
I stand by the fire to warm myself
While your thoughts were on getting home to
The world you left behind.
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