Garlic bread to the right. Salad to the left. And lasagna right in the middle on my plate. I ate every last bite. Surprise ingredient: Tarragon. I believe her husband David grows it.
Martha is color-coordinated with her dishes as she pours tiny croutons into our salads.
Donna Ellen Krause sneaks a look at the camera as if to say, Don't you dare take a bad picture of me!
I knew it! she's thinking. Carly what are YOU thinking.
Carly your cake was to die for. Angel Cake spruced up with icing and strawberries and blueberries.
Martha made a collage for Brianna, whose real name is something else, but they call her Brianna. She also made one for her daughter Emily, an RN, who lives with her male partner. Her other two daughters and their families don't live nearby, but she'll see the one living in DC, when they go to the Big Apple for the holidays.
Was visiting my ailing mother today. You'll read about her in the below poem.
Guess what kind of piano Martha has? I asked Mom.
A Krakauer, she said. When we lived on Marlindale Road in Cleveland Heights, we had a Krakauer baby grand. They don't make em anymore.
Gifts from my friends at the party.
I have no idea what that card for 70 years old is doing in my house, do you?
Crafty Martha, who works PT at a preschool center, gave us each a bag, asked us to decorate them, and then everyone should sign one another's. Below are the front and back of mine.
Will look again at these poems tomro. Exhausted now. My friend Greg Godfrey, one of our phone greeters, said to me, "Ruth, dyou take a nap every day?"
"Usually," I said.
"How long are they?"
"Ten or twenty minutes," I said.
BLUE NAIL POLISH
She
doesn’t realize it
but she
teaches us
with her
nail polish.
We all
want to be like her.
Like
Donna.
Sorrow
invaded her life early
the onset
of the misery-maker bipolar
the death
of her sweet Mariel
the
turning away of her husband
yet this
beautiful Italian woman
persuaded
him to have another
and
Danielle was born
Years
later, his sudden death
at the
massage parlor, shook
her like
a frightened rag doll. How she
wished
she would die. But knew
she would
never take her life.
All through
the hardballs life
aimed her
way, she never lost
her
faith, and knew, though
her
insides were hollow
she must
make herself
presentable
for the world
she so
loved but could not feel.
On came
the make-up around
her black
onyx eyes, and the
nail polish,
she dabbed on
her long
nails of fingers that
had
tousled the hair of her
childrenand
of John, and now
this new
man, Denny, that came to
live with
her.
I am
invited in. And feel
I’m at
home. “I could live
in a
place like this,” I think as
I stare
at the rolling green
back
yard, knowing the deer
will come
to drink at the stream.
My hands
in hers
she
paints my nails blue,
like
hers, then my feet
resting
in her lap, where my
freshly
washed toenails
wait their
turn to be colored
a shiny
blue.
We have snacked
on cashews
and an
in-your-teeth Luna Coconut Bar
Why
should I go home?
I pass
her man in the living room
watching
his shows
never in
my life have I seen
such a
look of love on the
face of a
man.
This is
the reward her God
has sent her.
Only the
best for
this long-suffering
woman.
Only the best.
His name
is Denny.
Denny Wilson.
***
STANDING
At
93 my Mother of the Bad Legs
had
a good legged day and
made
supper. She wowed us –
and
there were five –
my
boyfriend Scott, Kamellia, her
husband
Tyler and baby David
who
chewed the meat like
a
man – his smile shows little
chompers
on the top and
bottom
rows. Scott said it
was
like eating at his mom’s,
these
Jewish women could
have
owned their own
restaurants
– his bubby Yetta
did!
– as we purred over the
lean
brisket, plump golden
potatoes,
seven layer salad
like
a dobisch torte but made
with
peas and onions and
romaine
instead – and that
unique
sauerkraut dish with
tomato
soup and caraway
seeds
– no biggie that she
forgot
the seeds – and though
she
cajoled Scott he refused to
eat
dessert. Creamy pumpkin
pie
with no crust – why detract
from
the flavor with a useless
piece of dough – pizzelles from Hildegund,
garnished
with powdered sugar
I
blew onto the red tablecloth
and
butter pecan ice cream,
Dad's favorite till his tumor took
away his flavor buds.
away his flavor buds.
Although
Mom was tired, like a
champion
thoroughbred she
knew
she could run a little more.
Scott
and I led her, arm in arm, to our
car,
the perfect night to view the
Christmas
lights.
She
sat in the front, sunk down in
the
seat like a child, as I cruised
slowly
from one bejeweled house
to
another. Lost in a labyrinth
of
houses, Hoffman Lane
had
flashing red and white
peppermint
drops, running
up
the driveway which
switched
into greens and
then
whites.
What
gives? We had no
idea
how they did it, just as Mom and I
have
no idea if God exists
but
we enjoyed the view
all
the same.
At
home, the perfect night
ended.
The sight was
terrible! Say it in French
to
make it more horrid.
We
drove back to the
house.
I’d gone in to
fetch
Ellen to help Mom
into
the house. When I
returned,
she wasn’t there.
Suddenly
I found her
in
the pitch dark
on
the black driveway,
lying
face down like
a
whooped boxer
without
gloves. Scott
stood
looking down
helplessly.
One
hand was bloodied
trapped
beneath her
warm
coat. We wondered
with
her terrible legs how
she’d
ever stand up.
She
took control. Stand me
up,
she said and hold me.
Ellen
and Scott lifted her
into
my arms. I stood there
holding
my mother, as if
she
were a wife whose husband
had
just come home from
the
second World War.
The
stars twinkled up above
and
a sliver of moon gazed
upon
our own nativity scene.
Ellen
lugged the wheelchair
from
the garage. We sat
her
down. She never said
a
mumbling word as we
pushed
her, slowly, into
the
living room, the loveliest
room
in the house, and
lowered
her onto the long
flowered
couch that followed
us
to Pennsylvania
from Englewood Cliffs
New Jersey.
We
blew kisses good night and I
stole
into the kitchen for
one
more of Hildegund’s pizzelles.
Our
friend Mary Pasorini had
introduced
them to us, came
over
one afternoon, showed us
how
to make them in her
pizzelle
iron and said in her
high-pitched
voice – she was
86
at the time – “Get one of
your
own, Bernice. You have
enough
money.”
****
GIRLFRIENDS
Girlfriends
talk about anything they
please
with one another. Their con-
versation
is smooth as cream cheese
on
Triscuits. The four of us sit in the
third
floor kitchen at Martha’s house.
A
house filled with the echoes of
her
dead ancestors. When she smells
lavender,
her mother’s come to
visit.
Donna,
with luxuriant black hair and
dark
eyes, laughs and tells us what
her
mother and aunties are doing
“up
there.” Carlana at the other
end
of the table has had spiritual
experiences,
too.
Once,
I was asked to fill out a
survey
online to talk about
mystical
experiences I’d had as
a
bipolar woman. Quickly
with
a pounding of my mouse,
I
got rid of it. Meaning, you’re
no
friend of mine. Why should I
trust you with my precious inner
trust you with my precious inner
workings?
We’ve
consumed my birthday dinner,
lasagna
that’s smooth, creamy and
tarragon-flavored,
crunchy salad with
croutons
the size of edible pebbles,
and
that layered cake Carlana put
together.
The white Angel cake
seemed
to levitate on its crystal
cake
plate, iced with white frosting
topped
with blueberries and strawberries.
With
girlfriends, no topic is off limits.
Kindness
of husbands and boyfriends – once when
his
girlfriend had the menses at college and didn’t
want
to see him – he begged to make her tea. They
married
later. The humor of men – Go sit on the third
step,
said Denny and his Donna roared with laughter.
Hunks,
Donna called our men. Have you ever
met
with women who had no complaints
against
their men?
Bigelow’s
Constant Comment tea – cinnamon
spice
– swirled in our cups. I like mine hot.
Not
too hot, mind you, or the bump on your tongue
won’t
heal for days. I was careful.
Careful
too when I drove home, past a house on Allison Road
I
wanted to buy. How awful it looked now
with
7 steps to enter the front door. My mama
wouldn’t
buy it for me.
Of
the many perfect gifts they gave me –
tiny
birdlike wind chimes, flowered cup no saucer,
blue
menorah, jaunty cards, the one I liked best
was
edible, a large tub of Maxwell House Coffee. That
deep
blue color Goya would clothe a general in.
How
I wanted to make it tonight. You will, said
Scott,
I know you. And you’ll be up until dawn.
Girlfriends!
You know me. You sing to me. You
hug
me and tell me you love me. And call me
“Ruthie”
as I look at the blue candelabra and
ask
God to bless us all.
****
Carly and her husband Charlie are night managers at Gloria Dei Farms. She mentioned that one of the apartments is HUGE. She said it belonged to the founder of the Farms, who was also the pastor at Gloria Dei Church.
Read about the late Pastor Ernie Schmidt here.
Read about the late Pastor Ernie Schmidt here.
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