Saturday, March 12, 2016

Part Two - Writers meet at B's Comfy Condo - My poem: Love That Moon and short story Hot Stuff!

Two parts b/c I don't wanna lose anything I've written. Blogspot has a nasty habit of doing this.

Told Scott I wouldn't be over tonite, but changed my mind. This is his night to sleep. But I'll watch the film The Danish Girl. This is something he is definitely not interested in.

Image result for the danish girl    The great Eddie Redmayne from PBS fame plays a man who wishes to be a woman.

Doesn't it sound great?

Mom just called. Bad news, she said. Donny Garber is in hospice in Long Island and his wife Liz has dementia.

Two absolutely brilliant people. Rozzy called my mom. I'd wrin about Cousin Rozzy recently, but had to call Mom cuz I couldn't remember her sister's name. Iris.

Life! Honest to God, how can anyone believe there's a God?

Was so happy Donna typed up her brother Bob's continuing story. This chapter is called "Devon's Dilemma." Brett won a football scholarship and will move away from home. His dear friend Devon will miss him.

The two of em will stay at a camp, sleeping in a bunk together.

Will they or will they not get it on?

Can't wait to read the next chapter.

Bob said the words simply flew from his pen. He writes on Monday afternoons, mails the handwrin copy to Donna, who types it up.

That man has honed his craft with us.

I'm a big believer that no matter how old we are, our writing gets better and better.

If you wish, read my story Tommy on the Ladder of Life - about the molestation of a would-be priest - and my two poems.

Click here.

When I got out of bed this morning - it seems like a year ago - I had no idea what to write about.

What's on your mind, I asked myself.

My grandson, Max, who will be 3 in August, and his sighting of the crescent moon last night when I was over.

I gave a copy to Mom and Ellen when I was there. Ellen said she doesn't like poetry and Mom said she didn't understand it. 



LOVE THAT MOON

One:  Jefferson

We sat on the front porch, the whole
lot of us, the Washington family, knowing
that yes our folk of all different hues of
brown, were born of the first father of our
country, our country too.

Granny, born of a young slave girl, had
nearly died today, fell down once again,
not good for much, she was one-hundred-something
but who was counting? “Take me Lord” she would
pray with her toothless mouth that still
loved to sing “Let My People Go” and to
sip homemade hooch.

We done a right good load of hay baling, said
brother Jim, pointing toward yonder fields.
Oughta fetch a pretty penny and we can buy
our ladies some right pretty material for dresses
and bonnets and what not. Easter Sunday’s
on its way, praise the Lord.

Long as you gots enough wood to repair these
rickety steps that leads up to the cabin, says I.
Oh, don’t you worry, Little Miss, we’ve got
plenty including those wrinkled up bills we save
for when’s we need em.

Plus, says I, my boy Jefferson is going away to
college some day. We all watched Jefferson as
he played with his little plastic trucks in the dirt
zoom zoom – as he crashed them together
head first.

We laughed as one, a church-like chorus where
our own Pap was preacher, he done left us long
ago.

Jefferson looked our way and smiled that big ole
Mississippi smile of his. He pointed over the
newly greening fields and stood up.

“Mama,” he cried. “There’s my crescent moon.”
My crescent moon, he shouted over and over,
jumping up and down and raising the dust.

“You are right, boy!” I said, coming off the porch
and swooping him up in a hug. “That moon
sure do love you, boy, and so do I!”

<>


TWO: THE KID

No fair, I cried, you’re so tall we don’t have a
chance in hell of scoring against you.
That’s just a damn excuse, he cried as he dribbled
toward the basket, you just don’t know how to play.

There were six of us, Bobby, David, Ronnie, Max,
Danny and Tall Rose. He was a new guy. Me,
I wanted to punch him and say Get the hell
outa here and don’t come back.

“I know what you’re thinking,” he said, his
blackness the color of a worn leather belt.
“Who’s this new guy that’s taking over your
court.”

“S’right,” shouted Tall Rose. “It’s our court
and we want you OUT.”

“Tell you what,” he said. “If you give me a
chance, I’ll show you how to play.”

Mumble mumble mumble.

“Deal!” we shouted.

The kid was good. “You’re so good, Billy,”
I said as we rested on the bench, wiping
ourselves with towels, “you could be a
pro someday.”

”That’s what I’m hoping,” he said. “That’s
why I’m here every day, shooting hoops
while the rain sullies my beautiful black
skin.”

“What’s your last name, anyway,” asked Dan.

“Russell,” he said. “Billy Russell. Remember that!”   
Tall Rose pointed to the sky.

“Crescent moon right here in the day,” she cried.

“They been seeing that ole moon since forever. Guided
Captain Ahab in Moby Dick. As for me, Call me Billy.


<>

THREE:  THE USELESS KINDNESS OF THE MOON

A moonless night, but of course she saw all.
Floating, like a wayward seashell, in the
year of our Lord, 1912. Twas April, when daffodils
bloom, but not on moon.

She watches it all. The chaos, the disbelief, the
orchestra playing on deck, the lifeboats lowered
down down down.

No way could she melt that iceberg, huge as
a floating city, which is what they called the
ship.

Moon loved the cold. Her ancient cheeks – she
was already over 4 billion years, but who’s
counting, she laughed – sniffing the freezing
cold air.

Below, many were in the water. She
watched them struggle in clothes
that puffed up like balloons. Babies,
too. They’d go quickly, like the buzzing
bee who dies after the first bite.

She cast her glance at Father Sun.
Who was bronzing on beaches
far away? She views the moon-colored
sands in Florida, unseen sharks miles
and miles away.   

***

I wrote a true short story about a pal of mine - thanks, guys, for the term "pal." 

Here's the beginning


HOT STUFF

Was just reading the book The Geography of Genius by Eric Weiner when I came across the phrase “hot stuff.” My late friend Vincenzo Cardinale used that term. We were great friends during our three-year relationship which began with a phone call.
I was eating a peanut butter sandwich on my homemade rye bread when the phone rang.
“Mrs. Deming, I hope you don’t mind my calling,” said the self-assured voice on the other end. The Caller ID said he was calling from somewhere in Jersey.
“What’s up?” I said, attempting to mask the food in my mouth.
I’ve always wondered about eating etiquette on the phone. Perhaps I should simply spit out the food before the mandatory rings stop. Yes, that’s what I’ll do next time, I lie.
As a mental health advocate, I follow the news of what’s happening in the world of mental illness. I read that the FDA had denied use of the “vagus nerve stimulator,” in helping depression, despite recommendations of dozens of psychiatrists and neurologists who claimed it worked well. 
             I wrote a Letter to the Editor to various national papers, including the Wall Street Journal.

**
         Will continue the story and present it next week. Beatriz is having mucho company from Argentina and other places. So guess where the group will meet?


Hot stuff!





Part One - Writers meet at B's Comfy Condo

Excusing himself, Rem said, "I have to go to an oil change."

Wha? We'd been talking poetry and food and black cats (Rem had one) and suddenly he surprised us by talking about an oil change.

As a worker at the Roslyn post office he said the strangest name of a town he ever saw was Jackass Annie Road, ME. Shall we see if it still exists?


If you want, you can buy this house at 201 Jackass Annie Lane.

If you decide to buy it, please send me a $100 commission. Thanks in advance.

Stopped at Mom's on the way home from Beatriz's where our group met for a couple of hours.

Mom is doing fantastic! At 93, her mind is quite good.

Excused myself and checked my blood sugar in the dining room as I ate two scrumptious pieces of Jewish Apple Cake, B's friend Lorraine brought over. Lorraine, it seems, had over-bought for a party she was going to.

We were the joyful recipients. 

My sugar was over 200, but it's settled down and is now normal.

For dinner, I finished out my soup

Onions, zucchini, mushrooms and two handfuls of spinach I added, with grated Swiss cheese for protein.

And, now, as you can see I'm eating my fave snack

Mom talked to her friend Lenore who moved to Arizona. Lenore's two daughters are visiting. Neither have children. One is an expert equestrienne and is giving a talk somewhere.

About a year ago, Lenore's husband, Nate, got dementia. Suddenly. And died.

I had said to Mom, you've passed the point where you get Alzheimer's.

She corrected me.

After her nasty fall, she is now walking all over the house. Up the stairs and down the stairs.  I'm so proud of her. And of Ellen for caring for her.

Ellen said she liked my haircut from the Willow Grove Hair Cuttery.

Mom said she's losing her eyesight, her hearing, and her mind.

Well, you're still alive, I managed to mumble. 

My sister Donna told me she didn't like 'animal prints' like my leopard-like blouse. Why would she hurt my feelings like that? That's my sister. 

Well, let's get on with some poetry.

Donna wrote two excellent poems. Rem, whose car is running very efficiently now that his oil has been changed, said he liked her honesty. She writes what she feels.

In "Suzanna" (great name, tho fake), she wrote "I cried my last tear.... you're pulling away from me I can feel it deep in my soul."

Who among us, I said, hasn't felt the pain of heartbreak. One woman named Mona broke my heart. At the time I was obsessed with manic-depression, couldn't stop talking about it, so she ended our friendship w/o a word. Am not in the least bit interested in her now.

Time heals.

Also catharctic for me was writing about old boyfriends. Here's one I wrote about one of my fave boyfriends, Chris Ray. Of course, I used my imagination, so it isn't really true.

Donna's open-toed spring shoes - luv em! - her next poem was

Carrie.... I thought you were sweet when I first met you.

Lemme tell you something. Carrie is a real creep. Stay away from her. Her brother Bob agreed.

Again, the group loved her "bluntness," said Rapid Eye Movement Rem.

She'll never change, sez Ms Smarty Pants. 

Allan said that tomorrow is Forgiveness Day in the Russian Orthodox Church, of which he and his wife are members.

Some religious holidays make a lot of sense. A friend of mine, who recently lost her husband, said a friend from work recently asked her to attend church with her.

"What a waste of time," she said.

My sentiments exactly.

Allan, please ask my forgiveness tomorrow.

Image result for vacation rentals in la  Allan was online thother day and up pops a vacation rental in LA.

From that, he wrote a fantastic rhyming poem.... The King of France.

I wonder if by chance, you've come across the King of France
No, not the one who lost his head

Don't tell Allan, but I'm gonna pretend I wrote the poem and submit it online.

Today I was rejected by Goblin Fruit. Seems to be an excellent lit mag. Hold they fold soon.

Allan, please pray for my forgiveness.

We talked a bit about the Reign of Terror where 'off with his head' was the operative word. Even Robespierre's head landed in a bucket.

I watched the musical at Town and Country Players in Warrington.

Look who just stopped by! He said Keith Emerson of Emerson, Lake and Palmer just died at age 71.

Cancer? I asked.

Yes, said Scott. Don't know what kind.

Image result for napoleon  Allan said that Napoleon was basically a good guy and gave Jews and Protestants citizenship in the mostly Catholic France.

When Sarah and I visited about five years ago, we found it antisemitic. She and Ethan just celebrated their 10th anniversary there. Have things changed for the better?

Beatriz had the strength to write something and to brew coffee. That's why I'm wide awake now, having walked up n down the street and biking for half an hour.

Caffeine! A writer's best friend. Better than booze.

Can you see "the back" Beatriz is using? A calendar!

"The Girl Who Loved Books Too Much" was about Jenny, a lovely young lady, with the bad habit of never returning a library book.

Why, we wondered, would a nice girl do dat?

In fact, the basement flooded and library books were scattered all over the floor, ruined.

Her dad brot her to the library and payment arrangements were made.

After that, the poor girl never set foot in a library again.

Someone said there was a Seinfeld episode about a library book overdue 20 years.

Forgiveness!

Image result for the master letters of emilyThe Master Letters of Emily Dickinson I checked outa the Hatboro Union Library. It hadn't been checked out in 10 years. Who would miss it?

Turns out I lost the book, but found it beneath my bed covered in a furball of dust. Returned it cuz I'm terribly honest. Dreadful habit.

Did you get a new jacket, I asked Rem?

No. At the post office an old man asked Rem "What does Sales Associate mean?" It was written under his name Rem Murphy.

So now, says Rem, "At work they call me Sales (pronounced SAH-LEEZ) Associate (AH-SO-SEE-AH-TEE), which I consider my Italian name. My favorite town name is North, South Carolina. It's a Charleston suburb, so it's actually in south South Carolina.

He read us Chapter 13 and 14 of his novel Today's the Day, after a song by America.

The chapter, No More Mr Nice Guy - a song by the Alice Cooper Band - talked about a rhesus monkey locked in a cage.

He would be experimented on. They'd remove parts of his brain. "We just gonna make a little incision here," they told him. He protested fiercely, but all they heard were his screams.

"You won't have any more fears, but you'll be randy as a goat."

Good term "randy." So many synonyms for horny, and I'm not talking about psychoanalyst Karen Horney.

Then we switched to the main character and his relationship to his counselor, Mr. Flecks.

Please turn the page - zzzz - oh, wake up for chrissakes - and go to Part Two of z blog.


Thursday, March 10, 2016

New photo of me for the upcoming Intel story - Poem: While Reading Brooklyn - Poem: Back to the Jungle

This foto could be anything atall. Use your Rorschach abilities.

I'm gonna make it be a thick broth with large noodles, slices of carrots, and what are those round wheels in there?

In truth it's all the veggies I wanted to use up. I had HUGE onions and zucchinis. Then after shopping I added, from the salad bar, celery and peppers.

The flavor? Ahem. Well, it's okay. I used Kraft Swiss Cheese, going back on my philosophy of not using the product of a corporate giant, but, hell, I love their cheese.

Now, see the bowl I used? Bot it at a garage sale long ago. When you touch it, the bowl is HOT, unlike any other bowl I've got.

Part Two of organizing my CDs was to put em - just now - upon the shelf I'd painted. I hadn't realized how beautiful the covers are. Smaller, certainly, than the vinyl covers of yester year.

Finished my story for the Intell, even tho it's not gonna run until the day after spring...Sunday, March 20.

Did tons of online research and talked about pagan holidays, Passover, Easter, and a huge service that's held on the steps of the Lincoln memorial at sunrise on Easter morn.

Image result for sunrise service lincoln memorial

The first time I heard of sunrise services - out doors - was when I worked as a therapist at Bristol-Bensalem Human Services.

How exciting, I thought, and always wanted to write a poem or short story about it.

I can put it on my "Wanna Write List."

The strangest thing happened thother morning. I woke up with the thought "Celia Hollander." And looked her up on FB.

Could not remember the names of her other sisters. Her mom was Iris. I babysit the kids. Well, Celia remembered me, this is a truly amazing family. Dad died real young of a heart attack. Mom is still alive.

Since me own mom didn't work outside the home, I was fascinated by the many things Iris did while raising her family. I'd never known anyone like dat. The beginning of a new era of working women, which had started during WW2.   

Did I tell you our Shaker Heights next door neighbor, June Biskind died? We have no idea why, tho. The family all moved to AZ when her husband was jailed.

Mom would call June once a year.

Mom: the switchboard, the connector. Wonder what part of the brain does dat?  Hold on, we'll find out.

Oh, YOU figger it out. These PhDs take 100 words to say a simple thought. 

Tonite I watched the film SPOTLIGHT about the Boston Globe exposing the Archdiocese of Boston and their sex scandal.

Excellent film loaned to me on flashdrive by Robin from the Giant. Scott will watch the morrow.

In my thank-you email to her just now, I wrote: excellent, subtle, underplayed, well-acted, slowly building suspense.

Had a good nite sleep and then - presto - woke up. Wrote a letter to a woman from our group who called me outa the blue.

Brain-injured in auto accident. Can't think straight. Tragic.

Am wearing a pink top from my Macy's shopping spree. First Scott took the pic in his middle bedroom with white walls. You couldn't find me. I was camouflaged. Twould've been perfect if I were hiding from the law.

So we came outside.

Does it seem like my head is poking forward? That I "lead" with my head?

To that point....Right now, next day, am listening to audio book in kitchen called "Remarkable Creatures."

The narrator talks about a woman "who leads with her jaw?"

Coincidence? I haven't yet figured out my Einsteinian hypothesis for why things like this happen.

I'm also submitting stuff tonite to online mags. 

I learned I can write a poem any time I wish.

Here's one I wrote yesterday.

WHILE READING BROOKLYN

The book has a nice feel to it
the perfect volume
you've come to love

the print ascending
through the cool air
pinkening your cheeks

and find yourself aboard
a ship with narrow stairs
and dearth of toilets
when you have to go

I try not to think of
our own cruise ship
how it shapes up
against this pilgrim
ship, but it can't
be helped

I remember, like she
does, the bright starry
lights of the city getting
smaller, suddenly
you're free, and wonder
how would it feel
to drown?

Our late-nite snack
brought by Medrash
under stainless steel cover
mounds of
scrambled eggs and
burnt toast

Then walk in white
robe to deck, no one
there but the plastic chairs
and rattle of bottles
in the trash

Gasp at the stars
too brilliant for
this mortal mind
to grasp, but bring
a fistful down the stairs
to sleep with and
dream of home.


Just wrote this one.

BACK IN THE JUNGLE

Firm soprano sax takes us
back to the jungle
no longer five in the morning
with darkness all around
I sprint to the Amazon
hover high in a nest above
the trees

Like the birds, a hello
ceremony is played
from the wood-carved
instruments, their
tiny holes covered with
brown fingertips, how
fast they move, like
mating birds

Back in the straw hut
we women skitter. Bowls
of lizard stew are
served, bringing strength
to our brown-skinned
men.

Will you stay? asks the
man with the lizard tatoo
across his face. He, tall,
muscled, sipping his
tea, cracks a smile.

I muse. 


Image result for african musical instruments blow