Saturday, February 6, 2016

Record crowd at Writers' Group at B's Condo - Part One

Bear with me, as Felicia Kelly used to say when we worked together at the Record newspaper in Horsham.

Gotta lot to talk about here,

Monday: A slight chance of rain and snow after 1pm.  Mostly cloudy, with a high near 39. North wind around 7 mph becoming east in the afternoon.  Chance of precipitation is 20%.  Monday

When I went to the Giant to buy a roast beef sandwich due to the power of suggestion, I asked a couple people if it were gonna snow anytime soon.

If so, was gonna buy a carton of eggs. No one knew, but there's a 20 percent chance on Monday. Here's the weather channel I use.

Every single person in our writing group is abundantly talented.

Drove Judy to Beatriz's condo. She had to wait 45 minutes for me as I was doing the second draft of my short story.

Judy's story NO SOLID CRYSTAL (I have no idea what the title means) was about an encounter at a Roy Rogers' roast beef palace. (My term)

If I'm not mistaken my kids and I used to go to one on County Line Road and York.

Written in the third person, one Stuart, age 16, is told by his mother to eat healthy foods. She names some foods fit for an octogenarian. Stuart goes over to Roy Rogers where he sits with an old man with crinkly skin around his blue eyes who looks a lot like Roy Rogers.

They discuss the old TV show, Dale Evans, Trigger, but not Buttermilk, Dale's horse.

BTW, I'm not looking at my notes. Too lazy. Am trying to finish quickly so I can go over to Scott's.

Rem and someone else knew where Roy's restaurants are located. Harrisburg, PA. I just liked it on FB.

Image result for roy rogers  In the car I'm listening to The 60 greatest old-time radio shows of the 20th century [sound recording] / selected by Walter Cronkite.

Am pretty sure Roy Rogers will be coming up. Just listened to ESCAPE, a weekly story program. Tonight's show was about an invasion of Black Ants in South America. Quite exciting. William Conrad, who played Cannonball on TV, was the man charged with destroying the ants.

Very exciting. He was bitten and his bones showed thru but he made himself stand up and fight on.


Using my notes now, Stuart tells his mom he likes the fried chicken and biscuits at Roy's. If that doesn't make you lick your chops I dunno what will.

Beautiful story, Judy, that made me go over to the Giant. I am so stuffed now! Bernadette made me a very thick sandwich - I remarked about this on FB - on rye with thick slices of marbled-with-fat roast beef and Havarti cheese, spicy mustard and mayo, tomatoes, lettuce, spichwe-nichwe, onions and that's it.

Ate it in the beer garden, while looking at the Classified section of some newspaper. Gotta find a job.

Went on bike for 20 minutes after getting home. Spoke to Mom the whole time and told her the PJs she sewed are just fine.

Am wearing em now, as you can see.

Bought em a few yrs ago along with the tiger Richard Parker.

Bob McGlinscky,  Donna's brother, brought a short story called Summer Vacation.

It was the best thing he ever presented. He wrote it in a composition class in college where his teacher said he had a lot of potential as a writer. He revised it and it was quite simply a well-wrin story with a lot of surprises.

What's the worst thing that can happen on a summer vacation.

You can die. That's what happens to the main character. He had a heart attack. In a nice touch at the end, his wife taps him on the shoulder and says she forgives him for dying, instead of being angry at him.

We all respond differently to death. Anger is a common emotion.

"Don't you dare die on me now!"

GONE was Donna's poem. She wished she were gone b/c of the horrible feelings of her depression. A series of six shock treatments brought her back from the dead.

That was one good poem, we'll use it in the Compass.

She also read a letter wrin by Jenny, her boyfriend Denny's daughter. That young woman sure knows how to write a wonderful get well letter. She puts no pressure on Donna to get well and stay well. She knows it's a process. Of ups and downs. Donna will get further treatment at Collaborative Care. Rem approved. 

Temporary floor-sitter Allan Heller read a couple more chapters of his dark fantasy novel The Village of Blood and Stone. I particularly enjoyed a scene where one of the main characters, a gnome, nearly disappears in quicksand, after pulling down his trousers to do his business.

That alone is awful but the fact that he's sucked under is very embarrassing but fortunately his buddies pull his free. His business can wait until the morrow.

Allan was kind enough to refill my coffee cup about 17 times.

A Starbucks house blend. Beatriz was strong enough to make coffee for us - thank you Beatrice!!! - and also to write an excellent true story. See the wrapper of the turtle I ate from Whitman's.

Oh, said Mom, when I was talking to her on bike, in the yellow box? Yay, 93-yo Mama.

BTW, my sugar was low.... 73.... so I'm eating trail mix.

B's true story Twin Brooks of Yesteryear traced the history of her condo. It was so named due to the convergence of two brooks once teeming with wildlife, but not so much anymore.

Muskrats have been seen in the pond.
Image result for muskrats   

Jeez, it does look like a rat. Let's take a Wiki look at the mammal. 

Native to North America. I feel very proud and you should, too!

Donna began singing The Muskrat Ramble.

After ECT, your short term memory is impaired, but she was really sharp at the meeting - really sharp - offering good comments and wholeheartedly taking part in the group.

See how good our minds are when we feel like ourselves!

Beatriz wrote about the Lenni-Lenape, members of the Delaware nation of early Americans, before their culture was destroyed by Europeans and they were banished to barren lands in Oklahoma and Dakota.

She wondered if perhaps an Indian doll - made of corn husks - might be buried underneath her bedroom. And if, below the surface, relics are to be found.



Image result for archeological dig 

 Judy said that years ago she volunteered on a North Dakota Indian reservation where conditions were horrible. Terrible land for growing crops and no clean water.

Please move on to Part 2 of this blog.









Friday, February 5, 2016

Helloo Cousin Lloyd

He comes from Manhattan bearing gifts.

Food. Ready to eat. From his personal chef across the street, Citarella.

And I do. I had just injected 10 units and was gonna eat at home when Mom called saying her first cousin Lloyd had just arrived.

He got a lil lost bc his iPhone malfunctioned. In the middle of giving directions, the woman must have had a heart attack, fallen unconscious, and was out for the count.

Lloyd was just around the corner - Red Lion and Philmont - and Mom and Ellen talked him through, like a plane coming in for a landing where the pilot has passed out from lack of sleep.

 Mom used to babysit for Lloyd. When he asked her what it was like to die, she answered, You go to sleep. The lights go out.
Lloyd is a psychologist and has 16 clients. He's giving a talk at a conference about Unity-Consciousness. I think. Similar to being In the Zone or The Flow.

This was my second helping.

Baked salmon with a mayo sauce on top.

Greek salad with wonderful grape leaves, feta, and veggies.

Yumpers!

La piece de resistance was this Chocolate Rugelach, studded with chocolate chips.

Exquisite except if you're insulin-dependent.

We'd been talking about addictions. Gambling, alcohol and how they're in the DNA.

Where's the Sweet Tooth Gene?

Mom said she'd had her sweet tooth extracted at the dentist. Mom! You started the whole thing.

Ellen ordered this new TV set for Mom in the family room.

It was only $200 but the remote didn't work.

When I arrived, Ellen was at the store buying new batteries.

What, for her head, I asked.

No, for the remote.

They worked!

Lloyd and his wife Kate watch Channel 13, the PBS station.

Since Kate couldn't be with us, she sent flowers from a shop in Abington.

Lloyd is a jogger and told us a story about his mom, Aunt Marion, and her second husband Uncle Phil.

They used to live in the luxurious Presidential Apartments in Philadelphia. Phil's problem was he was not uxorious.

Dyou believe I told Lloyd the plot of my newly finished novel My Father's Keeper.

The good thing is I remembered what it was about. He thought it was fantastic. At least I think that's what he said.

First thing I did when I got home was to check my blood sugar.

It was slightly low!!! So I ate four Triscuits with Yancy Champagne Cheddar I bought for a dollar off at the Giant.

That cheese, which I ate for the first time, is a WINNER.

 We oohed and aahed at my sister Amy's quilt and talked about the various artistic talents in our family.

Lloyd's mother Marion was a fab artist. He showed me a photo of her painting on his iPhone. Boats in a harbor next to a wooden pier. Aunt Tay was also a painter.
We agreed that the Family Room is quite lovely. Amy and Rich were married there. Me and Millard were married there.
Mom and Dad were married at 2128 Marlindale Road, Cleveland Heights, 18, Ohio.

"I held the chuppah," said Lloyd, along with his brother Dick and probly Mom's late brother Uncle Don. Who was the fourth person?

Could it have been

Image result for benny comedian  Uncle Benny?





Character Studies in Books and in Real Life - Poem: Shoveling Snow at 70

Colorless Tsukur Tazaki and His Years of Pilgrimage book cover Sheila, sitting next to me at the Book Club, loved the ending of the book. Things were not all tied up with Hollywood endings, she said. It was a matter of speculation what would happen after we closed the pages of Murakami's book.

Who was the main character, the odd and colorless Tazaki? Why hadn't he realized as a teenager that the women in his social group all found him attractive, intelligent, and having the stability they longed for.

Tazaki, instead, felt no sense of self-worth (his father was rarely around and they never had deep discussions).

But me, I obviously feel a lot for this book and am surprising myself by writing about it.

Last nite I lay down to read and to sleep

The Girl Who Fell From the Sky book cover  Here's the book club selection for March. It reads like a Young Adult book. Easy to read but not particularly enjoyable. My Brad Thor thriller has taken off again. They've anesthetized a Congo guerilla fighter, smuggled him into the USA so they can interrogate him.

So I'm halfway asleep and decide to lobby for Donna to appear on the Duke of Oz show. The day before I sent a photo of Donna - a really b'ful woman - plus her poem Gift of Life.

So I go downstairs to my laptop and type up an email to Silvana, telling her the main issues we struggle with when we have bipolar, and send her our 30-minute video made by Larry Kirschner.

Suddenly, my email to Silvana disappears on the screen bc I hit that

What's that big square thing in the middle called?

Hold on. I'll send out a note on FB.

No answer yet on FB so I sent it to Macrone, who helps me with everything technical.

Touchpad is the answer. My son Daniel answered it on FB.

Back to last night. I've only got 20 minutes left of watching Collateral Damage with Schwarzanegger. Very exciting and improbable, yet fun to watch.

When I shoveled the snow this morning I thought I was pumping iron like Arnie.



 My selfie was taken outside thru the meer on the front door.

Nancy Myers, across the street, already drove down the road, barreling along.


Delicious omelet for breakfast. 

 So my watching of the film was interrupted with a phone call from Rob. He was in a talking mood and thought I wasn't paying attn to him.

I was but I was surfing at the same time.

Anyway we discussed many real characters, real people we knew. He and I both have good insight about people.

Rob used to live in The Colonnade in Elkins Park. My late friend poet and headhunter Arthur Krasnow had his office there. When I read this back I'll remember what Arturo told me about how the place went downhill. I sure miss the man.

When I visited Rob there he'd let me swim in the overchlorinated pool. Oh, my aching eyes.

Am gonna right a quick poem right now about swimming.

Oh no!  Look what came out

SHOVELING SNOW AT SEVENTY

Ready? she says
placing hand
on heart

Blue shovel in hand
black boots on feet
red beret over hair

She pushes two-handed
the shovel down
the walk

Learns the
rhyme of the
newly fallen snow

It's fierce,
unyielding
heavy as debt

But the woman
lifts up the
shovel, bends
her knees

Tosses it to
the side
again and again
and again

Pumping iron
like Arnold in
Collateral Damage

Without the blood
the handcuffs and
chains, only the

expectation of
Starbucks Decaf
from Donna
when she goes inside.

Scuse me, gotta work on News Roundup for our Compass mag.

Upstairs I schlep my fat ass.

Wednesday, February 3, 2016

Tom and Shirley stop over - Dr Oz calling - Poem: The Night Fog

 
 Mailed four of these out this a m to encourage people from our group. It's a long postcard and I write a note on the other side.

Rain, rain, please continue to wash away the snow.

The music I'm listening to?

Valentina Lisitsa, formerly from Ukraine, but now residing in - where else - North Carolina. In my book club we're reading

Colorless Tsukur Tazaki and His Years of Pilgrimage book cover
Since the author Murakami owns a jazz club and is very much into music, I listened to Liszt's Totendanz. Valentina records it in a mall. 

Scott stopped by before work and asked me to drive him. He cuts thru my backyard which is full of mud and slush.

Is it foggy? I asked.

Not bad, he said.

Wrote a poem about the fog, which you can read at the end. Who's that jumping up n down with excitement?

Ezra Pound? Robert Frost?

Yesterday, was walking home from Scott's when I saw them.

Our next stop, said Tom, was Scott's house.

I ran out to the car to serve them my Chocolate Wafers.

Then I walked em to the top of Cowbell, saying The Grand Old Duke of York, he has 10,000 men, he marched em up to the top of the hill, and marched em down again.

They knew it of course... Shirl got a job taking c/o lil kids,,,, and how on earth I remembered this rhyme is worth running out to the car to.... won't do it.... stuff myself on Triscuits.... I don't buy the rye ones cuz they're better than the originals.... and I'd never stop eating em

Showed em my Shorday's bag. Charles Shorday.... we treat you like family, said the bag. The Manson Family?

Showed em my Eggplant Chick Pea Mushroom Casserole.  Mmmmm Good. Scott loved it.
The tin foil don't taste none too good.

Hey, it's only 9:30 pm and I'm gonna go upstairs and finish my novel now.



For my clarity of mind and to keep me awake, I chose Starbucks, given to me by sister Donna. It's bitter  but I don't care.

Also ate this Amy Mushroom Soup. Five Stars outa Five.

Here's the letter from The Duke of Oz


Hi there Ruth,

It was great to speak with you just now. I hope that this message find you well.

I am currently interviewing different people who suffer from any depression or bipolar disease and would be happy to share their story on our show next week.

We are currently working on a segment and may have guest star Maurice Benard from the hit show on the ABC soap opera, General Hospital join us as well.

His character was known as  "Sonny" Corinthos, Jr. If there is anyone that may be interested in this opportunity and is a fan of Maurice Bernard- this may be a treat to them.
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Thanks in advance for your help and we continue to seek the right candidate for this opportunity.

All the best,

Silvana Marmolejos | Associate Producer | The Dr. Oz Show


I suggested young "Clara" an RN from our group who's working right now and also Donna, who has never felt better from having 6 ECT treatments.

Silvana chose not to get in touch.

Here's what I sent her about Donna.. it's taken straight from my blog....

Donna Krause from our Saturday Coffeeshop Writers' Group wrote this poem about Depression.


SHADES OF LIFE

Blanket of fog
Following me now
Seeing it through
My weary eyes
Darkness pushing me
Taking over my being
Brain is sopping up
All this filthy matter
Shades of black

Peeking through the darkness
I gain an eyeful of strength
Power to fight
On the horizon
Hold my hand
I want to become whole
Shades of Gray

Feeling the power
Meeting my demons
Destroying each one
Clinging to reality
My hand can barely
Hang on
Shades of Blue

The sun is forming
A protective robe
Wearing it for all to behold
Pushing through the scum
Of depression
My new heart is bursting
With gladness

Shades of yellow
My faith restored! 

 ***

 Suddenly, ECT is all the rage.

Image result for funny pic of shock treatments


THE NIGHT FOG

Silent as god
Menacing as a tiger
It beckons
unstoppable.

My car passeth thru
this tunnel of clouds
All I see are my
hands on the wheel
a-tremble.

The tunnel seems
long as I await the
end. Will a granite
slab smash my car
to bits at
the finish?

Good fortune wins
and the radio continues
to play the Listz
Totentanz.





Monday, February 1, 2016

Wake up! Wake up! You've got a lotta work to do tonight, Ruthie! - Poet's Haven publishes two of my poems - Thich Nhat Hahn and Shaker Furniture

Image result for occupied norway tv show Immensely enjoyed the first episode of Occupied on Netflix. "Occupied" is the most expensive production Norway has ever produced. Funny bc I said to Scott last night that I'd like to visit Norway.

Why, he said. Scott has no desire to travel except to the Giant Supermarket and the Seashore.

Oh, I said, the Fjords and to eat their fish cuisine and drink their beer. Scott and I were watching and sleeping thru Downtown Alley and then Mercy about the Civil War. They amputated a leg.

After I had my bloodletting at Quest in Jenkintown, I rewarded myself by eating at The Corner Bakery in Abington. Cheese omelet, fresh fruit cup - I removed the fresh pineapple so I wouldn't choke to death - and some whole grain bread.

Excellent waiter James who told me when the Hazelnut Coffee was ready. I was seized with a desire to chat with the black woman sitting across from me at the next table.

I waited until she finished chewing her pancake and said loudly This is a really good place, I've never been here before.

This was also her first time. A friend's son works here but was not on duty now. Prices are reasonable, we agreed.

Image result for corner bakery in abington

Ever notice how everything you write about is in the past?

MARCY, was that call from California from you? Will call back tomro.

 Sarah's b'day is Feb 7 so I got this little package ready to send her. Two berets, four packets of Bigelow's Plantation Mint - am sipping on mine now - it smells like chewing gum - and of course a poem I wrote and stapled onto a heart I cut out.

Mike Macrone from my accountant's office put it in two columns. I did do it myself, but the columns weren't even.

The mailing cost was $2.94. A new woman at Bryn Athyn was being tutored by Maria. Her name was Fia, short for Sophia, which, she said, no one can pronounce.

You should see the people in Occupied with their Norwegian names.

Oh no! I said at one point. I'm having my usual trouble where all the men's faces look alike, except, fortunately the prime minister's as he's older and has no facial hair. He can borrow some of mine.


 Paul Newman stamps and also Janis Joplin.
Listened to my erudite audio book The Rest is Noise by Alex Ross , a staff writer for The New Yorker.

Am learning so much.... like a sieve. Imperative that I listen in the kitchen while making this labor-intensive Eggplant and Chickpea casserole. Recipe by Martha Rose Shulman from the Times.

Confession: I've always loved her recipes but thought her name was Marsha.

I told Scott when he came over to say gbye before he walked to the train that the Eggplant was tough. He said you have to cook it a long time. I did follow instrux but it's still very chewy.

Yesterday this master procrastinator posted some fotos on FB. I was communicating with Judith Lawrence who just sent me two magnificent poems for the Compass:  Bathrobe Days and Daytona Beach, her new home.

I used to read my poetry at St Phillips Church outside New Hope, but Liz Bowman discontinued the readings cuz no one showed up!!!

 My cousin Chef Ray Sewell was inquiring about his grandmother... OUR grandmother, so I sent him this photo. Mom gave it to me. So, there were three kids, all of em dead now.

Foto is below. 

Harriet (Ray's mom) - she changed her name from Hyacinth which she didn't like - BTW I can hear her laffing now - Hy had a fabulous laff - then Marvin and then my dad. Dad called her Mama.

Next to her is her fave person in the world, her sister Rose. They were like twins. When lil Ruthie was born, she was named after Aunt Rose. Mom didn't like the name Rose - too sweet - so she chose Ruth, even tho she had an Aunt Ruthie, from Miami, who had tic douloureux or trigemeninal neuralgia. She finally got an operation that stopped this excrucatingly painful condition.

Aren't you glad to learn about dis? I'd forgotten all about it. Of course part of Aunt Ruthie's face was paralyzed by the removed of the nerve, but so what? 
Now, I'm gonna tiptoe into the kitchen and grab some trail mix. Scusem moi!
Last nite at Scott's we were sleeping to Austin City Limits when I woke up. Time to go home. But I suspected I was low.

Yes, I knew I was cuz my vision was affected. The TV screen was mottled. Jeez, I thought as I gathered my stuff and went downstairs.

I gulped down a couple handfuls of his Raisins and then walked home, looking up at the stars.

I was in an altered state. Went right to the fridge and ate two small tubs of Chobani Raspberry Chocolate yogurt and then I took my blood sugar.

28.... the lowest I've ever been.

We'd eaten pizza last nite and I injected 12. When I checked my sugar it was up to 200. My mistake was injected 8.

Shoulda waited for it to go down by itself.

Will I ever catch on?

Dear Ruth Deming,

Thank you for submitting "DINING WITH THICH NHAT HAHN" to The Poet's Haven. We love it and will be publishing it in the PoetsHaven.com Poetry Gallery.

Thanks again.

Sincerely,

Vertigo Xi'an Xavier
publisher, The Poet's Haven
AND the same day, yesterday, they said

Dear Ruth Deming,

Thank you for submitting "Shaker Furniture" to The Poet's Haven. We love it and will be publishing it in the PoetsHaven.com Poetry Gallery.

Thanks again.

Sincerely,

Vertigo Xi'an Xavier
publisher, The Poet's Haven
 My heart soared like a helium balloon reaching Mars.

May I change my mind about working on my novel tonight?

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Fairly good novel. Colleen is only 36, lives in TX, and has written 7 novels and 1 novella.

DINING WITH THICH NHAT HAHN

When I began eating my omelet
sprinkled with scallions
and melted cheddar,
hot to the tongue
and thought of my Christmas shopping
and the places I’d go

I asked Thich Nhat Hahn to
sit with me in the kitchen
to help me savor my food.

In dark robes
he bowed his head
over tea I prepared,
delicately lifted the white cup
as he bowed again
meeting my eyes,
eyes that have seen much
some of it wrapped into books
or poetry or praying for peace.

Taste returned to my tongue
the omelet and the goodness of
the hen who had given her life for me
I became one with the morning
The sun shone into my living room
I bowed my head in thanks for its
arrival that morning
Then lifted my glass of water
stared at the clear cold liquid
then drank,
it is cold and it is good to me.

And the master across the table
smiled
pinkie lifted as
he drained the last of his jasmine tea.


SHAKER FURNITURE

At the Philadelphia Museum of Art

Narrow wood
and fair
cut from trees
of another America
furniture
plain
worn at the
touch points
shy furniture
caught behind the museum’s glass wall
like a ballerina hooking up her dress.

The desk and rocker
the candelabra
upended like a bird on wing,
flow without order or design
in their latest
retirement place. Another
room, dark as
a porch in twilight
houses a high, narrow bed.
We can’t go in.
Who warmed their legs beneath these sheets?
Or dreamt of forbidden touch?

Really, it wasn’t so long ago that
they left, half a century merely,
the Great Ones, sitting in
the farmhouse for
their last regal portraits,
turning their ancient heads
like captive eagles
listening
still listening
for the scuff of shoes
on the kitchen floor.